Life. Friendship. Love. These were the subjects that thumped around in my brain like a runner on steroids at 4:30 this morning. What does it mean to be a true friend? Do I have an unrealistic view to what that means? Have I been a good friend over the years? How is that so many people enter our lives, we have fun with them, laugh with them, cry with them? Then we grow up, or move away and frankly can't remember the last time we actually spoke with them on the phone...or even crazier still, spent time with them in person! Are friendships only meant to last a season before you go your separate ways?
Should I get up? No. Its still too early. Can I fall back asleep? I'd sure like to. I hear the birds beginning to faintly chirp through my open window. More thoughts stream in like a runaway freight train. Disagreements. Misunderstandings. Lack of communication. They are so far in the past and all seem so petty now, but at the time they acted as a propane tank to a flame, igniting stubbornness, resentment and sometimes even the death of a friendship. What could I have done to prevent certain things from going bad? Was that something within my power as a human being to change? I feel sad that they are no longer a part of my life. I wonder how life is treating them. Are they happy? Do they have their own families yet?
Agh! Okay. I need some inspiration. I open my iPhone to Dr. Wayne Dyer. The first thing that pops up is "Be thankful for everyone." Wow. Coincidence? I think not! I read on... "Every single person who's drifted in and out of your life is a part of your Divinely chosen experience....give thanks for all these people, and take a serious note of what they brought you." Thank you Wayne! What a great reminder! I feel a burst of joy as the cool morning air breathes on my face. What great lessons I have learned from making mistakes, and saying or doing the wrong thing!! How much better can my relationships be NOW that I have become conscious to my choices and actions that follows them, in this human experience? Now I'm awake. Theres no stopping it. It's 5:45 a.m. and excitement for life is rushing through my veins. The world is waking up on this side of the sphere. I can hear nature bustling as I close my phone and jump out of bed. I have a new day in front of me. New challenges to overcome! Relationships to nurture! Dreams to fulfill! But first things first....a soothing, hot cup of goodness. :)